I’m an author from Southern California
I am also a freelance Digital Media Manager.
I follow the Los Angeles Lakers, LA Galaxy, USMNT, and Arsenal FC.
In the past, I’ve worked for/with: Paste Magazine, Absolutepunk.net, Sony Music, Columbia Records, Total MLS, and was a tour manager/artist manager for various bands like Madina Lake, Audio Karate, and Steel Train.
Onward and Upward podcast — a weekly podcast that is sort of like an extension of my blog. …
It feels good to hit the “publish” button again. It does.
I’ve missed the feeling deeply for the past 18 months.
Ever since the pandemic hit, I, like most people, felt like I was going to achieve great things because I had so much more time at home.
But again, like most people, that didn’t happen. Yes, I was working on my small business but at the same time, I didn’t feel motivated in creating content at all.
Maybe because it was the feeling of being cooped up at home or I just didn’t feel like doing anything at all.
Why do we care so much about what people think about us?
It’s something I’ve been struggling with ever since I was a kid. I never felt like I fit in even when I had friends all around me.
And what’s worse is I would try and act different, at times, just so I would be accepted.
For the past year, I’ve tried to be mindful and learn to let things go; speak my mind and be myself, no matter what.
But sometimes, I still feel afraid because I’ve been conditioned to do so.
I need to remind myself to…
These past couple of weeks have been pretty weird for me.
I’ve had this pit/feeling in my stomach and I can’t really figure out what it is.
It could be stress.
Or both, I guess.
I have been busy and haven’t really taken some time for myself like I have in the past.
On one hand, I should be grateful that I have a job and am doing pretty good but on the other hand, I am not actually doing all that well.
There are times where I know I should take a step back and take a breath…
I am, just like many other people around the world, in my house and have pretty much been locked in my house for the past week or so.
I don’t know what day it is anymore but does it really matter?
I usually work from home anyways but I like leaving my house to work at a coffee shop for a change of scenery or step out to lunch.
That was my “break” away from work but now, I can’t really go anywhere.
I understand what is going on and why we need to practice social distancing but I am…
I need to learn to speak up more. I’ve been working on this flaw/weakness of mine for the past few years but there are times where I regress to my old ways.
Even when I do speak up, I feel like I am not taken seriously. I feel like my opinions don’t matter and that’s when I get discouraged. I feel my self-esteem dip just a little bit.
On the other hand, when other people voice their ideas and concerns, I dome best to listen and work with them so they know they are heard and that their options matter…
Throughout my childhood and into my teens, I carried around a piece of paper in my wallet that said: “be well off by 35”. It was my only goal in life other than becoming a pilot in the Air Force but my low self-esteem prevented me from achieving that goal.
I never considered myself good enough for a lot of things, actually, but that’s another story for another day.
The other goal of being well off by 35, however, was and still is on my mind since I was a child. …