The first month of 2020 has come and gone.
It was ok.
Not that great but not that bad either. It was more good than bad but I’m not complaining.
I’m still procrastinating and I don’t want my biggest flaw of 2019 to carry over to this year.
I don’t know why but I usually get lazy towards the end of the year. My creativity slows down and I don’t write as many blogs as I want to. The same with recording my podcast because I was doing so well for most of 2019.
I’m not in a rut or at least I don’t think so.
I’ve been busy running One Two Threads.
I’ve been trying to make excuses to not put out my blogs, newsletters, and podcast even though that’s what I enjoy doing.
I was regularly posting 2–3 new blogs just a few months ago but I stopped.
I was putting out a podcast episode every week but I stopped.
Maybe it’s because I’m physically and mentally burnt out from everything I do during the year but it could also be seasonal depression.
It doesn’t get that cold here in Southern California but when it does, I don’t feel like doing anything especially when it’s raining.
But it could also be that I am making excuses to NOT do the work.
I have the time because writing a blog once every few days, putting out a newsletter and a podcast once a week doesn’t take very long. Sure, I want to be a perfectionist but I spend more time watching Netflix and consuming media than I do create.
I’m writing this at a coffee shop because I was sitting here with “nothing to do” when in fact, there’s a ton of stuff on my to-do list that needs to be done but I was turning a blind eye to it.
I was telling myself that I could do it later even though it was causing me anxiety and I was making it worse by not chipping away at it.
I am trying my best to buckle down and not waste time on stupid stuff that doesn’t bring me any value but it’s hard to change habits, especially bad ones.
So from this point forward, I am making it a point to getting shit done because I tend to lag on things and procrastinate to a point where I get buried with the stuff that I have been putting off.
I could make a New Year’s resolution to write and put out more content but what’s the point when I don’t want to do it?
It all comes down to buckling down and doing the fucking work or else it will be meaningless.